Children…

Seriously, I never thought I would love something so much so quickly. My mom says it comes naturally to some, that motherhood is easy for some. Here’s to hoping that things come some what easy to me…

Currently I’m doubting that, I fed him waaaay to much food and hes now peeing like a race horse, as the saying goes. So I’ve had to change him 3 times in the last 3 hours. I’m also afraid to feed him again… because honestly I have no idea how much he’ll actually eat!

The whole letting him sleep next to me thing is kinda freaking me out, simply because hes either so damn quiet that I freak out in thinking that he’s not breathing, or that he is making noise and I’m afraid he’s in pain or something. I had a mini-freak out on day 1. He aspirated on the old formula, full on stopped breathing for a few seconds. I started crying after word, and called my mom. She just calmed me down and came down here to relax me. But so far, that’s the only freak out that I’ve had…

I get to go home tomorrow, which is nice. But I have no idea what I’m gonna do once I’m home… I mean I can’t really go anywhere till hes about a week old…